You want to relax. You are tired and watch TV. Your mind is open and receptive. If you watch the news on television you must be aware that what you are seeing, that directly affects your mood, psyche, outlook, disposition, and modifies your ability to reach a higher plane, is condensed negativity.
Your focus determines your reality. Where focus goes energy flows. So become more aware and you can realize your goals. But, you must write a plan and take action. Stop waiting, work is more fun than fun. Satoru